Well here I am after picking mysef up and dusting myself off. Sorry to go on about this but even over the last couple of days its been a real struggle for me. I have felt emotional and sad (teary even). The feelings of calmness and balance were very slow to come back. I battled with some non-related stuff yesterday and was quiet and withdrawn not sure how to handle it. I just wanted to be home alone and not have to be out socialising but it wasnt to be. I ended the day with a good cry after Peter had gone to bed.
The Universe works in strange ways and has delivered to me a helping hand at the expense of another. It is truly wierd yet its seems to speak to me about moving forward from here on.
On Saturday my mum was pretty down about some not-so-good health news she had just received. I listened to her news, offered some tips and advice before deciding it was better that her GP do that (LOL) and then continued to rush through the weekend as I usually do without the significance of her news sinking in.
So this morning in the peace and calm of my walk, shower and getting ready I was struck by the significance of her news. Her latest round of medical tests showed she has high blood sugar. Of course she'll be back to see her GP this week but it sounds like she has pre-diabetes (I'm sure she's not diabetic.) I'm so proud of her saying that she will, if allowed refuse medication and try to rectify or control this through diet. I just hope she sticks with it and doesnt succumb to the drugs if diet modification gets too hard.
Its only been a short time but I've thought long and hard about this and her (yes I'm struggling to focus on work today!!). She is not overweight (just not in good shape due to lack of exercise and a subsequent lack of muscle tone.) I dont want to judge her diet because at 75 years of age your priorities and motivation are different to when you're in your 40s, 50s or earlier. And if she is pre-diabetic then she will be the first on my side of the family.
So how does this translate into a helping hand for me? Well it really hit home just how potentially destructive my binging habits could be for health reasons (not to mention the emotional aspect). Whilst at this age I'm still very healthy and can maintain a healthy weight through exercise and mindful, balanced eating - there is no doubt that every binging episode makes a serious withdrawal from my bank account of good choices. What I dont want is to get 5, 10, or 15 years down the track and face the same fate because I regularly went on some massive cake-and-other-crappy-carbs eating benders.
So I have made a decision to cut the crappy carbs and be more minful around having sweet treats. And the next time I am on the verge of a carb laden binge attack I'll ask myself if the prospect of pre-diabetes is one that I'm prepared to entertain down the track.
Food for thought.
M
Something else we have in common, Magda. My mum was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. She has had several health issues over the years, including high blood pressure ever since I was a little girl, however this is the one that I felt was the most diet-related of her ailments. She isn't overweight either, just made very bad food choices...I remember shortly after I'd moved out of home (I was the last one) hearing her say that her favourite lunch was three cinnamon doughnuts and a black coffee...
ReplyDeleteIt's also the reason why I don't want to head down that path, I might join you in cutting out the "crappy carbs"...they've been sneaking back into my diet slowly but surely.
Oooooh cinnamon donuts ...... YUM! Only joking LOL.
ReplyDeleteHer news really made me stop and think and realize that I don't need them and in fact don't feel particularly good when I eat them. It's just a small sacrifice that I can make for say 90% of the time and hopefully be rewarded with continued good health into old age. I truly believe that if we don't start paying attention now, by the time we have an illness, it's too late. Cheers Sandra.