........ (because I always am) I'm having a tough time and have lost focus on my turnaround. Historic patterns repeating over and over and needless to say I've done a lot of draining-and-getting-me-nowhere self analysis. I've tried to be objective about it all but thats very hard for a highly emotional and over-sensitive Cancerian. There have been tears, albeit shed in private as I prefer to keep my personal struggles to myself ... oh and Blogland LOL.
Work busyness and pressure is not helping right now either. Although I have proved previously that I can cope without turning to food, in the last week, that hasnt been the case. Oh and red wine in more than moderate quantities is my new best friend. Whilst I dont drink to get drunk, I'm now having a wine more often than usual.
But on the positive side I've decided to do things a bit differently from here on. I just need some time to research and put my plan into place. Deep down I feel my decision is the right one .. if what I want works out. Yes thats all quite cryptic but at this stage there's nothing more to tell.
So there's my whinging negative post. Right now I cant see any silver lining on the clouds but I have a 4 day long weekend coming up and the plan is to focus on me, me, me and rack up some fun and feel good activities.
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What about the good choices you made, Magda? I bet there were a few. Maybe try focusing on the things you DID, rather than the things you DIDN'T.
ReplyDeleteI had a bourbon last night. Big deal. I also ate good food all day/week. I missed a workout Monday. So what? I trained four out of the past six days.
Don't let the negative thought spiral out of control. You know you can do it. :)
And yay for 4-day weekends! I have one too. *happy dance*
Amen for the long weekend, I say!!
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