WHEN NORMALITY IS RETURNED

When I read back over my last two posts, I realise how much I give away my control and lose my confidence in my own abilities. This isn’t the first time its happened and in fact in my 40something years I’ve let it happen too often.

When the going gets a bit tough and eating well and training hard  feels like its all too hard, a nice easy “cop out” is to look for answers elsewhere. I know I often turn to self help books thinking that every new book I read might just be “the one”. That book might contain the Holy Grail or that vital bit of info that once I have it, I’ll be cured forever. I also find myself doing a mental stock take of every diet I know and assessing how effective a way it might be to lose some weight FAST. And believe me I have quite the repertoire of diets up my sleeves LOL. Again its just another form of looking for answers elsewhere.

I’m sure many can relate to this in some form and to some degree. If you’ve truly never been there or have no idea what I’m talking about then I’m surprised you’re here reading my food / diet obsessed ramblings. I think as human beings we naturally seek the easy way, the way that gives us less pain or discomfort. However we often make the mistake of only looking short term to give us the instant gratification we naturally seek. A bit of the “who cares if this chocolate bar (or whatever your vice is) will slow/stop my weight loss, I NEED it NOW” mentality. Yep, seriously guilty of that one.


I'm becoming more and more aware that there are times for me when emotions take over and I dont think as rationally and logically as I should. You may not believe this but I have never suffered from PMT - until recently. Now I'm noticing shorter cycles, pain like I havent had since decades ago (not to mention heightened pain in my back, glutes and legs) and eating junk like a mad woman in that traditional PMT time. Its quite an eye opener and something that I need to get on top off when my brain is working properly.


So I've digressed but will come back to my statement about looking for answers elsewhere. When the mind calms down, the voices quieten, the brain moves into its logical and rational gear and normality is returned, I know deep down that the answers I'm looking for are all within me. There are key questions I ask myself and when answered honestly I have my way forward.


As Gillian commented on my post from Sunday night "I'm not the type of person to chuck it in, declare it all "too hard" and just let obesity take over" (and rest assured it would if I had that attitude). When I've fallen over and I'm feeling like a failure I will pick myself up, dust myself off and get going again.


My basic habits are good. I'm on the way to mastering my mind and my emotions. I have the tools I need, I just need to use them daily and keep working on this one small step at a time. Its not about another diet nor cramming in extra training. For me its not about logging my intake, balancing my macros or slavishly following so and so's you-beaut diet plan. I must trust myself to know what I need balanced with what I want at the right time and in the right quantity. (oops thats sounding a bit diet obsessed but you get my drift).


I have some reading for my management training course and whilst its targeted at being a better manager / leader I'm intrigued how this theory can be applied in a personal sense as well. (No its NOT another self help book but an insight into emotional intelligence and understanding yourself - always an interesting read in my opinion.)


More on that tomorrow, I hope.


Cheers all


M

PS Sorry about the stupid fonts guys. Blogger wont change it to a uniform font / size and its messiness is really pissing me off GRRR