Day 1 has been a good one. Albeit it was short but key things got done at work, my health was not compromised, I stayed balanced and there was some quality family time thrown in as well. All boxes ticked so gotta be happy with that.
There is now a long weekend to enjoy so trying to put work out of my mind, chill and enjoy me and family time . My housework is done (YIPPEE) so that is a big plus. But right now I'm super tired so I'll do my usual nana impersonation and toddle off for an early bed. See yas all tomorrow.
Xx m
Friday, September 30, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
ACTING DIRECTOR FROM TOMORROW
My stint as Acting Director starts tomorrow. Today, however was a great warm up for it as our Director was out for most of the day so the biggies (problems) all landed with moi.
I have decided to put my fears, self doubt, lack of confidence parked off to the side and bloody well embrace this opportunity. (Yes this is me talking, not several glasses of wine).
Hard work never scared me or put me off and my Director gave me some lovely words of reassurance as to why she thought I was capable and worthy. I dont want to let her down and I dont want to let myself down. BRING IT ON, I say.
The next 3 weeks will be focussed on work, staying healthy and balanced and not forgetting my wonderful family. Peter has even offered to be the "house husband" should my schedule require it. (errr he still has to work though but do the extra in the evenings). Gotta love the man who knows how important this is to me and how much I want to do well.
OK enough gushing and off to bed. I have legs to train tomorrow morning as today was a rest day.
Cheers all and wish me luck
M
I have decided to put my fears, self doubt, lack of confidence parked off to the side and bloody well embrace this opportunity. (Yes this is me talking, not several glasses of wine).
Hard work never scared me or put me off and my Director gave me some lovely words of reassurance as to why she thought I was capable and worthy. I dont want to let her down and I dont want to let myself down. BRING IT ON, I say.
The next 3 weeks will be focussed on work, staying healthy and balanced and not forgetting my wonderful family. Peter has even offered to be the "house husband" should my schedule require it. (errr he still has to work though but do the extra in the evenings). Gotta love the man who knows how important this is to me and how much I want to do well.
OK enough gushing and off to bed. I have legs to train tomorrow morning as today was a rest day.
Cheers all and wish me luck
M
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
AMAZING THE DIFFERENCE A GOOD SLEEP MAKES
Thank you to Kek, Liz, Sandra, Mich and FB friends Shelley, Kristy and Hilary for your your supportive comments, acceptance and helpful suggestions. I think yesterday was the culmination of a lack of sleep going back to last week where on 2 nights I was awake for several hours. Despite sleeping through for a couple of nights after that and thinking I was rested after the weekend, things couldnt have been further from the truth. Last night I had an awesome sleep, hit snooze at 4.50 and slept for another 15 minutes and then woke up feeling invincible (well almost).
Today was just as stressful, full-on and challenging but I easily kept a smile on my face most of the time. All due to being well rested, I'm sure. There are a couple of other issues at play but not ready to blog them yet. Things may sort themselves out, fingers crossed.
Eating was ok today. We had a lunch out to farewell my colleague Miss R who is going off to have baby #2. It was such a disappointing meal though. Since when does a tablespoon of coleslaw (and nothing else) constitute a salad.??!! (I had ordered salt and pepper squid with salad and chips knowing that I usually eat the salad and leave the chips.) Because my satisfaction rating was very low, I did have a biscuit after lunch (didnt need it but felt cheated with the poor meal at the pub) but kept things in check after that. Again, lots of positive self talk and just coaching myself to get through the next 5 minutes, 10 minutes, oh look I'm going home in half an hour speak.
Today Peter and I were exchanging emails about various things including work and he suggested that at the end of my acting stint perhaps a nice treat would be in order. I said that sounded great and was envisaging a leisurely cruise around the Greek Islands, daily visits to the Beauty and Health Spa, maybe Dom Perignon for breakfast. Funny .... thats not what he was envisaging. Reality check: I'm covering for my Director for 3 weeks not the Prime Minister of Australia.
:-) M
Today was just as stressful, full-on and challenging but I easily kept a smile on my face most of the time. All due to being well rested, I'm sure. There are a couple of other issues at play but not ready to blog them yet. Things may sort themselves out, fingers crossed.
Eating was ok today. We had a lunch out to farewell my colleague Miss R who is going off to have baby #2. It was such a disappointing meal though. Since when does a tablespoon of coleslaw (and nothing else) constitute a salad.??!! (I had ordered salt and pepper squid with salad and chips knowing that I usually eat the salad and leave the chips.) Because my satisfaction rating was very low, I did have a biscuit after lunch (didnt need it but felt cheated with the poor meal at the pub) but kept things in check after that. Again, lots of positive self talk and just coaching myself to get through the next 5 minutes, 10 minutes, oh look I'm going home in half an hour speak.
Today Peter and I were exchanging emails about various things including work and he suggested that at the end of my acting stint perhaps a nice treat would be in order. I said that sounded great and was envisaging a leisurely cruise around the Greek Islands, daily visits to the Beauty and Health Spa, maybe Dom Perignon for breakfast. Funny .... thats not what he was envisaging. Reality check: I'm covering for my Director for 3 weeks not the Prime Minister of Australia.
:-) M
Monday, September 26, 2011
SAILING IN ROUGH SEAS
Beware another honest, from the heart post is coming up and whilst I hate to whinge, there might be some of those undertones.
There is no doubt that I'm now in a very pressured and stressful situation with work. My Director has 3 days of work left and then its me: Director, Manager and potential basket-case LOL. There are issues galore: some daunting, some complex, some annoying, some just requiring many hours of solid work to get them done. The "B" word (boredom) will not be in my vocabulary over the next 4 weeks.
I'm feeling it already ... the pressure. At a team meeting today everybody was mucking around and joking and I was just annoyed and short with my responses. Normally I join in with a laugh because having a bit of fun is a good thing. Today, I was just annoyed. When my Director told me of another incident of an on-going staff problem I almost cried. Obviously the issue needs a LOT more of my attention ... as do a 100 other more urgent and critical things. Its Monday evening and I'm exhausted and pretty much wiped out.
I can feel this is a danger time for my eating too. I binged again on Thursday and Friday. Today it took LOTS of awareness and positive self talk to avoid a repeat. But I managed it and at least I dont have those negative feelings to deal with as well. Sometimes I'll just have to breathe and remind myself "one step at a time - one hour or minute at a time."
My love affair with Bikram continues although that too is posing some minor problems - but not for discussion tonight. In the very least I plan to keep up my training whether its just 30 minutes a day instead of the longer times I've been doing with ease lately. Why wouldnt I you ask. Only because I'm so tired - even first thing in the morning.
OK thats enough hearts and flowers for one night. No point trying to write a happy happy my world is so good post when the ship hits rough seas like it has now.
M
There is no doubt that I'm now in a very pressured and stressful situation with work. My Director has 3 days of work left and then its me: Director, Manager and potential basket-case LOL. There are issues galore: some daunting, some complex, some annoying, some just requiring many hours of solid work to get them done. The "B" word (boredom) will not be in my vocabulary over the next 4 weeks.
I'm feeling it already ... the pressure. At a team meeting today everybody was mucking around and joking and I was just annoyed and short with my responses. Normally I join in with a laugh because having a bit of fun is a good thing. Today, I was just annoyed. When my Director told me of another incident of an on-going staff problem I almost cried. Obviously the issue needs a LOT more of my attention ... as do a 100 other more urgent and critical things. Its Monday evening and I'm exhausted and pretty much wiped out.
I can feel this is a danger time for my eating too. I binged again on Thursday and Friday. Today it took LOTS of awareness and positive self talk to avoid a repeat. But I managed it and at least I dont have those negative feelings to deal with as well. Sometimes I'll just have to breathe and remind myself "one step at a time - one hour or minute at a time."
My love affair with Bikram continues although that too is posing some minor problems - but not for discussion tonight. In the very least I plan to keep up my training whether its just 30 minutes a day instead of the longer times I've been doing with ease lately. Why wouldnt I you ask. Only because I'm so tired - even first thing in the morning.
OK thats enough hearts and flowers for one night. No point trying to write a happy happy my world is so good post when the ship hits rough seas like it has now.
M
Friday, September 23, 2011
THIS IS ALL I'VE GOT ...
I'm exhausted.
Its been a busy and tough week.
I've had way less sleep than what is optimal.
There's a lot going on in my head and this will continue for the next 4 - 5 weeks.
I'll probably try to journal again privately (havent kept it up since I last started it again) to maintain my balance and perspective on things.
Taking proper care of #1 will be paramount if I'm to survive whats ahead of me.
Good night all
M
Its been a busy and tough week.
I've had way less sleep than what is optimal.
There's a lot going on in my head and this will continue for the next 4 - 5 weeks.
I'll probably try to journal again privately (havent kept it up since I last started it again) to maintain my balance and perspective on things.
Taking proper care of #1 will be paramount if I'm to survive whats ahead of me.
Good night all
M
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
SHARING POSITIVE STUFF
So its been a little while between posts. Just really busy with stuff both over the weekend and obviously at work. Stealing a few minutes now in case the opportunity doesnt present itself again for some time.
I've always been a really honest, put it out there blogger. When I struggled with binge eating, I shared all those downs. When I struggled with my scale weight I didnt hold back on that either. When my life was a rollercoaster of the diet/binge cycle I shared my ups and downs always believing firmly that I was doing the right thing even if the right thing wasnt doing right by me.
Well its time to share some really positive stuff now and try to explain it.
I no longer have a love/hate (mainly hate) relationship with the Metal Monster. Not just beacuse I like the number looking up at me but because my happiness and well-being is not dependent on it. Yes I have checked in lately and have been very pleasantly surprised to see the number drop into the 63s. But I was just as happy when it was in the 65s. And if it went back to the 65s would I have a meltdown and stuff myself silly with as much crap as I could get my hands on? Maybe LOL ..... no I actually doubt I would.
My body is changing in a positive way and I'm not flogging myself with killer training sessions for this to happen. I will say though that I totally believe Bikram yoga is for me. It is hard, there's no denying it, but a very different hard to running or lifting heavy iron. I've had several compliments from people at work and I like that. Last night's Bikram class was the best so far. The instructor was awesome in her ability to get that little extra from me and for the first time I totally got the 100% connection with what Bikram is about.
Food wise, well what can I say? I regularly drink wine (sometimes too much), eat cake, drink cappuccinos, eat bread (daily) and I never shun oily fish or other good fats. I also eat a lot of unprocessed natural food and I rarely eat a big dinner (but have been known to if we are out and the food is superb). If you had said to me 6 months ago that I could do this and weigh less than I did when I was always trying to eat clean (but was binging a lot), I would have smiled politely at you and thought to myself "you have no bloody idea what you're talking about." How wrong was I??
I think there comes a time when you just have to question if what you're doing is right for you? How does it make you feel? Is it allowing you to live your best life? And if its not, then there needs to be a leap of faith to do different. I knew deep down that for me that wasnt another diet, another training program with another PT or any one of the revolutionary fat loss programs that are availble out there. I had to trust myself to try something different and believe it was right for me.
The rest is history.
I've always been a really honest, put it out there blogger. When I struggled with binge eating, I shared all those downs. When I struggled with my scale weight I didnt hold back on that either. When my life was a rollercoaster of the diet/binge cycle I shared my ups and downs always believing firmly that I was doing the right thing even if the right thing wasnt doing right by me.
Well its time to share some really positive stuff now and try to explain it.
I no longer have a love/hate (mainly hate) relationship with the Metal Monster. Not just beacuse I like the number looking up at me but because my happiness and well-being is not dependent on it. Yes I have checked in lately and have been very pleasantly surprised to see the number drop into the 63s. But I was just as happy when it was in the 65s. And if it went back to the 65s would I have a meltdown and stuff myself silly with as much crap as I could get my hands on? Maybe LOL ..... no I actually doubt I would.
My body is changing in a positive way and I'm not flogging myself with killer training sessions for this to happen. I will say though that I totally believe Bikram yoga is for me. It is hard, there's no denying it, but a very different hard to running or lifting heavy iron. I've had several compliments from people at work and I like that. Last night's Bikram class was the best so far. The instructor was awesome in her ability to get that little extra from me and for the first time I totally got the 100% connection with what Bikram is about.
Food wise, well what can I say? I regularly drink wine (sometimes too much), eat cake, drink cappuccinos, eat bread (daily) and I never shun oily fish or other good fats. I also eat a lot of unprocessed natural food and I rarely eat a big dinner (but have been known to if we are out and the food is superb). If you had said to me 6 months ago that I could do this and weigh less than I did when I was always trying to eat clean (but was binging a lot), I would have smiled politely at you and thought to myself "you have no bloody idea what you're talking about." How wrong was I??
I think there comes a time when you just have to question if what you're doing is right for you? How does it make you feel? Is it allowing you to live your best life? And if its not, then there needs to be a leap of faith to do different. I knew deep down that for me that wasnt another diet, another training program with another PT or any one of the revolutionary fat loss programs that are availble out there. I had to trust myself to try something different and believe it was right for me.
The rest is history.
Friday, September 16, 2011
WRAPPING UP THE BIRTHDAY CHEER
September didnt start too fantastically in our household. On 30 August I was quietly congratulating myself on NOT getting a cold this winter. On 31 August I got my first cold for this winter. Hmmm. Not happy about that. I missed yoga and both weights sessions that week.
The following week started well but then my boy got sick and spent a day and half home from school with a non-specific virus. Yet again yoga was missed and so were my weights sessions as my routine was all out of whack. By then it was 2 weeks with no yoga and no weights.
Fast forward to the end of last week and beginning of this week and it was Peter's turn to get sick. At least that didnt affect my training and I put a damned good effort into getting back into my usual routine. So it was yoga on Tuesday night backed up with my leg weights training Wednesday morning. By late morning yesterday I could feel the DOMS showing me some love.
So to put the icing on the cake, today was upper body day and all I could say was "oh strength, why hast thou left me?" I swear in the 2 weeks of my absence each 5 kilo plate gained a kilo in weight, the 10 kilo bar got heavier and clunkier and my muscles said "what the hell are you trying to do?" I'm sure the DOMS love will be heading north by tomorrow.
Now that everyone in our family is well - and ironically we all had a different illness - we can truly enjoy Peter's continued birthday celebrations. On the menu tonight are individual Steak Wellingtons (vs one large Beef Wellington) with some snazzy potatoes (recipe yet to be decided) and veges followed by baked coffee liqueur cheesecake. I think we're dragging out a GOOD bottle of red as well. The SWs wouldnt be my choice but then tonight is not all about me. Tomorrow night we go out for drinks and dinner kid free :-) and thats about it for the birthday cheer.
M
The following week started well but then my boy got sick and spent a day and half home from school with a non-specific virus. Yet again yoga was missed and so were my weights sessions as my routine was all out of whack. By then it was 2 weeks with no yoga and no weights.
Fast forward to the end of last week and beginning of this week and it was Peter's turn to get sick. At least that didnt affect my training and I put a damned good effort into getting back into my usual routine. So it was yoga on Tuesday night backed up with my leg weights training Wednesday morning. By late morning yesterday I could feel the DOMS showing me some love.
So to put the icing on the cake, today was upper body day and all I could say was "oh strength, why hast thou left me?" I swear in the 2 weeks of my absence each 5 kilo plate gained a kilo in weight, the 10 kilo bar got heavier and clunkier and my muscles said "what the hell are you trying to do?" I'm sure the DOMS love will be heading north by tomorrow.
Now that everyone in our family is well - and ironically we all had a different illness - we can truly enjoy Peter's continued birthday celebrations. On the menu tonight are individual Steak Wellingtons (vs one large Beef Wellington) with some snazzy potatoes (recipe yet to be decided) and veges followed by baked coffee liqueur cheesecake. I think we're dragging out a GOOD bottle of red as well. The SWs wouldnt be my choice but then tonight is not all about me. Tomorrow night we go out for drinks and dinner kid free :-) and thats about it for the birthday cheer.
M
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